I am sorry this is yet another heartbreak poem Yet another goodbye poem This is a letter to my ex that I wrote the night we met each other for the last time. I don’t know how goodbyes work I don’t know if I should have hugged you a little tighter or I should have stayed back a little longer. Maybe I should have looked you in the eyes one last time before storming off like that Or maybe, I should have dropped just few more hints to let you know that I didn’t wish to leave you at all tonight. I mean, I don’t know about you, but at least I wanted just one more hug, one last kiss and one last adventure to remember you by. But you didn’t seem to care anymore and without even flinching you declared that it was time for me to head back home. Because staying away from you will make it easier for me, right? But hey, who exactly are you to decide what’s good for me and what isn’t? Wait, how did you even decide that ‘breaking up’ was good for ‘both’ of us? I don’t understand how do you get all these huge privileges but I don’t get any? Look, I am sorry that I fell in love with you exactly when you started losing feelings for me. But why is it that I have to accept everything and calmly move on as if nothing really happened? As if these past 6 months never existed? As if ‘we’, never existed. You tell me that I am strong enough to handle these loses that come in my way once in a while. But what makes you think, I should be going through all this hurt in the first place? Sure, we all deserve a little pain. But why even a ‘good guy’ like you didn’t make sure I never got hurt again so badly? You knew nothing breaks me like a heart-break, didn’t you? And even though I had a brave face on all day long, that did not mean I was feeling anywhere close to okay. How could I be ‘okay’ if all this while we both wished waking up next to each other for the rest of our lives but today morning you woke up and decided to leave me all alone? What happened to that forever we used to talk about? Even though you kept telling me how bad you felt and how ‘sorry’ you were to have put me through this ridiculous amount of pain, You should know that you had no right to use me like this. You had absolutely no right to play with my feelings just because you were so unsure about yours and you shouldn’t have claimed me one day only to abandon me the next! I don’t even know when you exactly stopped wanting me. But, I’l be honest with you. Somehow I already knew there isn’t any future waiting for us and maybe just spending one more night together wouldn’t have changed anything for us. But maybe, just maybe we could have had a much better ending than what we actually got? Had I not went back home? Had you not let me go? But anyway, I can’t ask you to stay if you don’t want to and I definitely can’t make you fall in love with me, no matter how hard I try to. All I can do is start all over again tomorrow without you standing beside me at each and every step from now on. Even just a thought of it really scares me right now. But no matter how much you leaving me have hurt me tonight I just hope you made the right decision Not just for you, not just for me, but for both of us. And as no one knows what the future holds I just wish that one day we both find the kind of love that will stay, for a change. And in the end, Along with hating you for breaking my heart so badly, I also want to thank you. Thank you, for stopping by. I am glad that I was at least loved, if not kept. And don’t worry I absolutely won’t be waiting for you to come back to me. After all, a strong woman knows her worth and she definitely knows when to let go just to never look back.